Only because you want to know

Since a lot of people want to know WHY I deactivated my account, I'll just explain right here as I'm not going to respond to individual messages.

-First of all, ever since my deviantART account was active all I've really been doing is browsing and lurking around people's pages but it's become too much of a distraction so I just decided to deactivate my account because as long as it's active I'm going to keep using that as a reason to keep logging on and wasting my time. I have assignments to get done and if dA is a distraction... then they're not getting done and that is a problem. 

-Second, I really feel like I have no reason to be here, at all because I feel like it's kinda unfair how of all artists that are skilled, talented and put effort into their work, only a few end up getting anything for their hard work. If anything, I'm beginning to suspect the reason I don't get as much flack as those artists is because I post my drawings AND my SFM art to the same account and some people don't want to see drawings while others don't want to see SFM so... I suspect that even those who watch me have a reason to hate my art or even me even if they don't hate me nor my art. 

-Third, it's just a reflection of how I feel in real life... In real life I really want to die, but I know that death is permanent and I can't come back to earth whenever I like if I die. At least if I just deactivate my account here, I know that I can come back as long as I come back within 30 days. If I don't come back by then, I can always create a new account. Not to mention, if you still want to talk to me, I have Skype and Steam.

As for those who were disappointed in me for deactivating my deviantART account, I just want to say one thing. This is my choice and I didn't want to come back and I understand you're all sad and everything and I didn't know what to say when you asked me to come back. 

But... I want to make three (or maybe even four) clear.

First of all, even if I deactivate, I realized you're just going to get over me being gone. Second, it's not like I died so if you have my Skype or anything we can still talk. Third, I can come back as long as I'm alive on this earth.

Fourth, if you felt sad over me deactivating, how would you react if I told you that I had some kind of terminal illness and I had only weeks to live? 

So please... if I ever deactivate, you have the right to be sad and everything, but to ask me to come back, I feel like you're not really seeing things from my perspective and more so, you're not respecting my choice. It's not just my choice, it's a choice I made for a reason I think is legitimate.